Return of the Revenge of the Son of Saying Hi to Josiah!

[shauni]

My creative writing course started this Monday and runs until next month. My art course starts in January next week. The CR course so far seems interesting, we are going to do short stories, poems and Diary style chapters as well as learning how to structure stories and implement ideas. Should make my Sutra project a bit better after the rewrite lol

[Josiah]

Hi! Nothing too exciting going on right now. Monday was Rosh Hashannah, so I took a day off from work to go to services (which were pretty nice). Other than that I'm just kinda in a routine at the moment.

[shauni]

FINALLY GOT PAID TODAY! Got myself the Birdy the Might DVD box set and the Skyrim Dawn Guard expansion. Yay!

[Siranae]

Congrats, Shauni!

That reminds me, I really should get a job this semester. I can't really think of a time where I could fit one, but I know that the extra money would come in handy. I've actually had to buy more textbooks this year than last year. I guess because I'm learning computer programs? One of the books I had to buy was actually written by my professor, and all his lessons go by the book, so that's pretty helpful. It's been nice to actually start concentration on my major.

[PoisonWing14]

Moi,

Blarg, havn't been around for a bit due to school and general laziness.

I also was up all last night watching a live stream on Twitch tv, and have yet to go to sleep. Bad brain is bad for doing that. I am currently very tired and a bit loopy (due to multiple sugar rushes and much laughter over the course of the night).

So, uhh...current events...Well, on Friday, I finished the mile run/jog in Gym. Not that bad though, for the rest of the day, I felt rather drained. The only thing that made the mile better then previous years was that I had a certain song on my iPod that I listened to while I ran, Guile's Theme. I felt so awesome, like I was in a Rocky movie or something.

Also on Friday was my school's homecoming pep-rally. I find it to be more annoying then anything...the entire school (1000+ people) gathers in the Gym, there are a few activities where the different grades compete against each other, way too loud music, yelling students, and it gets quite stuffy in there. Not a very fun time if you ask me but, eventually, I give into the mob mantality.

So yeah, that's about it. Imma going to take a nap and hopefully go to bed early tonight to make up for lost sleep.

Stay radical people! Peace off!

[Josiah]

Hi! I got a really neat idea for a story today while browsing in Barnes & Noble. Not that I really have time for another project right now, but it's too interesting to ignore entirely. I'll say more once I've worked out the details...

[shauni]

hello all!

I gotta say, I love the Dawnguard expansion for Skyrim. I've got a horse I can't kill (got through three already on my second play through), a dead zombie dragon summon and a vampire follower.

I also downloaded the home expansion as it was only 400 point. I got kids! God I think my Skyrim life is awesome!

Now I just need to level up my real life....LOL

Birdy arrived today as well, so after collage I think I'll sit down and watch one or two episodes!

[Doodleshark]

...Sooooooo I turned 19 last month. I was 13 when I first joined the forums. That was five and a half years ago.

God I feel old.

[Silver]

Doodle... I'm 21. I joined when I was 12... You're complaining about feeling old and you can't even buy alcohol yet!

...Actually, can you? I can't say I'm familiar with Canada's drinking age...

[Saber Knight]

Hey.

SOO something interesting actually happened in my life. And I'm still puzzling over it. And I'm going to share it with you wonderful 3rd party people who do not know the people in this story! Because I could use some wonderful 3rd party advice, and I think the story is at least slightly entertaining! And I feel like I haven't ranted about my life here in a long time! So yay!

So I was at a band party a few days ago. There was a drink off (I did not participate, merely laughed and watched and made sure puke buckets were in the vicinity), which was thoroughly amusing. It involved drinking 5 beers and eating 15 dinosaur chicken nuggets. Anywho, a few of my upperclassmen friends participated, one of which is my drum major (the person who conducts the band. Also a senior), whom I have a bit of a crush on. Night continues on, we play some beer die (too lazy to explain rules), but I drink enough to have a small buzz going, whilst my drum major has a couple more beers due to beer die. So then I ended up talking to some dude I'd never met before, and then I realized he was hitting on me (not gonna lie, it was flattering. I mean, I've never been hit on before), so I awkwardly escaped that convo. I then went over to my drum major and was all "haha, that guy was hitting on me" and my drum major was all "ooh, he's annoying, you don't want him hitting on you. He knows I don't like him, so stay close to me." And then one thing led to another and we were cuddling on the couch with our arms around one another and my head resting on her (did I mention my drum major's a chick? Oh and, bi the way... yeah, you get the point. I'm bi. She's gay. Moving on.) chest. We were talking about random stuff, yadda yadda yadda, cuddling, etc. Then she said something that I couldn't hear, so I turned my head up and was all "wut?" and she was all "It's wonderful when no one's watching." and then we kissed. And I'm pretty sure my brain exploded, because I never thought that my crush on her would amount to anything ever. And then we cuddled and talked more, and she was all "I'm not supposed to fall for freshmen" and "I hate how much I like you" and "why can't you be a junior?" Oh, and we kissed again. And then about 2:30 AM hit and the last freshman were leaving so I left with them so I didn't die on the way back to my dorm. I was still in shock a bit. Didn't sleep well.

So the next day I saw her at a "the band manager and drum major will join the freshmen for brunch" type thing. I was all "yo, can we talk for a sec" and then my mind blanked on everything I wanted to say (just as it ALWAYS FREAKING DOES when I go over to talk to someone. Really need to work on that, and really should have seen that coming) so I basically just awkwardly made half sentences for a bit until she was like "You're just my little freshman" and hugged me and the convo ended. Since I overthink things, I couldn't stop thinking about the whole thing for the rest of the day, and decided I'd confront her before pep band the next day and have a legitimate conversation. I even prepared a bullet point list for this new conversation. However, later that day, she facebook messaged me being all, "Hey, sorry if I freaked you out a bit. I just wanted to let you know that I don't regret last night at all, and I hope you don't either. I do really like you, and it's unfortunate that you're one of my freshmen. I'm glad we get to hang out in band!" and then we had a conversation where I didn't fail epically and asked her questions and stuff ("How drunk were you? How much of what you said was real, how much was alcohol? Were I older, would that change anything?" etc.) She told me that she's not looking for a relationship right now (she just broke up with her ex about 3 weeks ago), and we talked more and this post ended up being way longer than I intended.

But yeah. That was kind of an interesting thing to happen in my life. Now I'm left with seeing her 6/7 days a week with the knowledge that we both like each other, but nothing will happen. I mean, I'm perfectly happy just being friends (and it really hasn't been awkward between us or anything the past couple days), but I do wish I'd asked if nothing happening was just limited to no relationship happening, or if that also includes no possibility of anything like what happened at the party happening again. If it won't, I'm fine with it, but I just have to know so I can get the whole idea of maybe something else happening out of my head for good. Haven't decided whether or not I'm gonna awkwardly try and bring that up on Thurs.

But seriously? "It's wonderful when no one's watching."? That line. It freaking pops up in my head all day. Definitely not healthy.

tl; dr: I kissed a senior and now I'm not sure what's up between us.

So that's my story. Any advice? Amused? I'm really better at the storytelling in person. With hand gestures. It made my friend go through a roller coaster of emotions. Definitely one of the more interesting things that's happened in my life.

[shauni]

Whats the age difference? I don't know freshman, juniors and seniors. As far as I'm guessing its only three years right? I wouldn't say that's a big difference. If she doesn't want a relationship I wouldn't push it on her or she will just resent you. My advice is to wait a few weeks and see if she makes another move. She might really like you and not want to treat you like a crappy "getting over my ex" relationship. How series were her and her ex? had they been dating long? If so I's defo give her time to get over it....

Don't rush things, if its meant to be it will be, so don't be all awkward about asking her stuff or you might put her off before anything can really happen.

go with your gut!

[Josiah]

Hi! Relationship advice really isn't my specialty, but if she just wants to be friends I'd say stick to that. Lots of strange things can happen when drink is involved (one of several reasons why I don't drink) so you should try not to get too worked up about it. Don't pressure her, don't obsess, take things as they come, and be careful what happens (with her or anyone) when you're drinking.

On the subject of age, I'm 27 here and I hate it when people younger than me say they feel old...

[Silver]

Yeah... just got out of a relationship and was drinking? That's not a good combination for making healthy, rational decisions when it comes to romance. Now, that doesn't mean that she doesn't actually like you, but it's a pretty clear indication that she didn't intend to make anything serious out of it... but it's at the point where all you can do is wait and see. Don't force it, is what I mean.

Unfortunately, if your being a freshman is her main concern, it's going to take a lot of patience on your part... She's probably thinking that she'll graduate and you'll still be there, so it would be impossible to maintain any sort of relationship after that, you guys would break up and she'll have "wasted" her senior year of college. The age gap isn't what matters, three years isn't all that much and it's not like in high school where one of you is underage and there's that whole "statutory rape" thing. It's what happens after graduation that's the problem... so you're pretty much stuck waiting until after she graduates. If you guys stay in contact easily after that, plus you're not one of "her little freshman" any more, the situation might be different. But... you'll need quite a bit of patience for that.

[Saber Knight]

Hey.

Oh, there's definitely no way I'd push a relationship happening. I never ever ever EVER would have expected that in the world of ever. Even though I pretty much never expected anything happening between us ever in the world of ever, and that sort of happened.... but whatevs.

I just can't really tell if "we're just gonna be friends" was 100% defined, and if there's a smidgen of doubt, I'd like to know. I do know the reason she broke up with her ex is she just doesn't wanna be in a relationship. "Right now or for the next 5 years haha. I'm just not in that place." I mean, I'd be fine with a little bit of hooking up here and there (honestly, I don't know what I'm looking for in my life relationship-wise either), but if me being her "little freshman" also means no to that, I just want to know. Wouldn't be upset or anything--I totally understand--I'd just want to know.

Thanks for the advice, guys! Next time I see her is tomorrow, so I'll decide whether or not I want to talk to her by then.... hopefully.

Edit: For the record, it has been established that we both like each other. Both parties were sober at the time.

[shauni]

Just don't end up at her beck and call or to put it bluntly a "booty call". That can only end with you upset. I only say this as you said "I'd be fine with a little bit of hooking up here and there" You might miss real relationships if you end up in "kinda" one with her.